Saturday, April 05, 2025
play that music too loud
Friday, April 04, 2025
rest in peace bob marley
Thursday, April 03, 2025
joy to you and me
top down
Tuesday, April 01, 2025
oysters in my pocket
Monday, March 31, 2025
just meet me at the apt
Sunday, March 30, 2025
cruel summer
Saturday, March 29, 2025
i'm not a vampire
Friday, March 28, 2025
running up that hill
Thursday, March 27, 2025
all my tears have been used up on another love
Wednesday, March 26, 2025
there ain't nothin' safe in this world
I had another great day of figure skating (or rather, consumption of figure skating). It was, quite possibly, a little too much - I was at the skating rink for something like 10-12 hours today, since we watched some of the pairs' official practice, then the women's short program, then the pairs' short program. This was a lot of skating, but there were some truly lovely routines (and, of course, the usual random heartbreaks since a missed edge or bobble can change the whole trajectory of someone's final score).
The saddest part of the day was the tribute they did for the skaters who died in the airplane crash when their jet crashed into a military helicopter a couple of months ago. Several of them were affiliated with the Skating Club of Boston, and many others were also in the skating community, so it was quite a powerful moment (and heartbreaking to see photos of the kids who died, many of whom had just been competing/training that weekend).
I would tell you more, but I'm very tired and think there's a possibility that I'm getting sick, so I'm going to save the commentary and go to bed. Goodnight!
Tuesday, March 25, 2025
don't you know that you're toxic
Monday, March 24, 2025
ridin' high when i was king, i played it hard and fast cause i had everything
I had a v. v. hermity day despite being in a new city - the event that I'm in Boston for doesn't start until tomorrow, and so Sherry and I both worked today. I was not feeling in it to win it - I'm usually quite productive on the day before a vacation, but because I'm already at my destination it feels like I should already be offline, and I was surly about having to do stuff. It didn't help that it rained all day - which was perhaps good for feeling like I wasn't missing anything outside, but certainly didn't help my energy.
But still, I survived the day and got a few tings done, so I'll take it. Then I ran to Whole Foods, grabbed some groceries, and made the sausage / swiss chard / parmesan pasta that I sometimes like to make. Sherry seemed to really like it, and it was good to carb load before a competition (even if that probably isn't a requirement for audience members the way it is for athletes). We talked about many and varied tings, and I journaled for awhile, and then I was going to go to bed but decided to do one more work thing instead.
And now, I really am going to go to sleep - goodnight!
Sunday, March 23, 2025
I saw the solstice, the service station on the road
Friday, March 21, 2025
without you, beside you, but you knew what i knew
I have nothing of interest to report today - my headache was mostly gone, although it's started to come back in the last hour (probably because I should have gone to bed). I got up early and went into town to get allergy shots, which was an accomplishment. Then I came home and slogged for several hours, but it all went fine. At some point I checked in on the end of the Iowa State March Madness game (we won handily). I also took a power nap since I have not been getting enough sleep the last few nights. Then I continued working until it was time to stop.
After work, I made some chicken with mushrooms in a creamy parmesan sauce to eat with all the leftover mashed potatoes that I made the other night. This was pretty tasty, and [censored] and I really enjoyed it. Then I spent way too long scrolling on my phone while half-watching Family Guy with [censored], and then I finally came upstairs, folded laundry, dealt with some minor tasks, contemplated my packing list, etc.
And now it's time for bed - goodnight!
Thursday, March 20, 2025
show me how in old milano lovers hold each other, oh so tight
The headache I had last night continued unabated today - I didn't sleep particularly well, woke up with a crushing headache, and felt incapable of doing anything. So, I mostly didn't do anything - I lounged around waiting for ibuprofen and then excedrin migraine to kick in, and neither really did.
I canceled most of my meetings and continued to be mostly decrepit for most of the day. I did dial into a few things as the day wore on - I showered and changed into fresh sweats for the occasion, but I left my camera off for half of them. The other half were with Adit and other people whom I don't mind seeing me looking bedraggled.
By 7pm I was starting to feel a little better, although I still didn't feel like eating much. That meant dinner was as bland as possible (tortilla chips and cottage cheese), so we'll see how I'm feeling in the morning. I also talked to [censored] and watched the end of the Drake/Mizzou game, which ended in Drake's favor (exciting since they haven't won an NCAA first-round tournament game since the 1970s).
Then, sadly, I had work that I absolutely had to get done since I didn't do it last night. I used my second wind to work for the last three hours, which was good for my job security and potentially bad for my headache. And now I need to go to bed immediately - goodnight!
Wednesday, March 19, 2025
adrenaline keeps you in the game
Monday, March 17, 2025
come home late in the morning light
It was a v. typical Monday - I woke up, made coffee and journaled a bit, slogged relentlessly for a couple of hours, took a shower, and had a meeting. Then I sped into town for allergy shots - I reacted a bit to them, but it was not bad. Then I came home, immediately jumped on more meetings, and worked until I could do no more.
Then I spent some time cleaning out the fridge and gathering trash from my bedroom and office so that [censored] could dispose of it in the parents' dumpster. After that, I sat on my balcony and wrote for thirty minutes, which felt great. Then I made fresh spaghetti to go with last night's spaghetti sauce. While that was cooking, I jarred up the rest of it, so now [censored] and I have five jars of sauce for future suppers.
After dinner was ready, [censored] and I ate while watching some Big Bang Theory reruns. And now, I need to unwind - goodnight!
Sunday, March 16, 2025
don't you miss the breathlessness, the wildness in the eye?
I was fairly productive today, all in all - I actually wrote for an hour in the morning and another hour before dinner and another thirty minutes or so before bed, which was v. nice. I also did a bunch of laundry, got groceries, and made a triple batch of Grandma Barb's spaghetti sauce. You may recall that I don't have a grandma named Barb, but I found a recipe online for a spaghetti sauce made my someone else's Grandma Barb, and the sauce is a winner. A triple batch is almost nine quarts, which means [censored] and I ate a ton of spaghetti tonight and will have more tomorrow, and then we'll have several jars of sauce in the freezer for future rainy days.
And now, I need to go to bed - goodnight!
Saturday, March 15, 2025
come get lost in a fairground crowd
I was falling asleep and almost skipped blogging, but skipping two in a row feels bad, so I guess I'll wake up long enough to do this. Yesterday was long but productive - I got up early and did a few tings, and then I sped to Des Moines for a couple of appointments. I was overdue for botox in my jaw, and since I was starting to clench again I was getting more headaches. Luckily my new job is way less annoying than my last one, so I was able to go nine months between injections instead of four - but eventually I need help from my little neurotoxin friends.
So, I got my injections very quickly and mostly painlessly. Then I did some work from a coffee shop, ran a couple of errands, and grabbed a quick lunch. I also got my hair cut while I was in Des Moines, which turned out well. And then I normally would have worked some more before grabbing groceries, but the weather forecast for yesterday afternoon was wild. So I drove straight home, put my car in the garage, and joined a video meeting at work. Within twenty minutes of getting home, the winds picked up - and while we didn't get hail or any other real damage, I was v. glad not to be driving in 60+ mph winds.
I spent the rest of last night working / eating random frozen foods in lieu of cooking / talking to [censored] / messing around. I managed to get up at a reasonable hour this morning, and I spent most of the day being productive (shocking, I know). I finished my closet cleanout project today - I still need to haul a bunch of stuff to the basement or make some donations, but it feels good to be organized going into spring.
This afternoon, I picked up my dad and we drove around for awhile. I think he was in it for the promise of donuts more than anything, but we had a good time. After I dropped him off, I caught up on reddit for awhile, then finished cleaning up my room. [Censored] and I picked up Mexican takeout and took it out to Mom and Dad's, where we had a nice time eating while catching the end of the Big 12 championship game. And then I came upstairs with the intention of working, but other than refilling a fountain pen, I mostly read / dozed until waking myself up to write this.
And in tonight's bad news report - Trump shut down Voice of America and defunded Radio Free Europe / Radio Free Asia (and also shut down a bunch of other agencies, including the one that funds state libraries). This is likely at least partially illegal since VOA is part of an independent agency created by Congress, but Trump's gonna Trump when it comes to ignoring the Constitution's well-defined separation of powers. Personally, I'm pretty sad - I listened of Voice of America for an entire year when we lived in Ukraine, so I have more personal nostalgia for it than most Americans.
I suppose you could argue that radio isn't that important anymore - although VOA/RFE/RFA still have ~380million weekly listeners. And I would buy the argument to stop funding this and invest in better methods of spreading America's message globally... if we hadn't also completely gutted USAID, betrayed Ukraine, are likely to leave NATO, launched a series of confusing and likely disastrous tariffs and started trade wars with our closest allies, etc., etc. But again, Trump's gonna Trump, and we'll be picking up the pieces for a very long time.
And now, goodnight!
Thursday, March 13, 2025
alien in utero
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
pnd life went on beyond the palisades, they all bought cadillacs and left there long ago
I have nothing interesting to report today - I had a much better day than yesterday, and was far more productive, so at least there's that. It helped that I slept until the point that I wanted to instead of having to get up early - I made some coffee and got to work quickly, and managed to knock off some tasks that I'd been putting off. I had some meetings in the early afternoon, and then I went into town and got allergy shots. Then I came home, worked a bit, said farewell to [censored], did some housework, and then worked some more.
At some point I took a break from the laptop and took advantage of [censored]'s departure to make myself a tofu stirfry with brown rice while listening to an audiobook. I folded some laundry, cleaned my room, and got ready for my various volunteer meetings coming up while watching some of Seth Meyers' recent shows. And now I need to go to bed - goodnight!
Sunday, March 09, 2025
undercover russians in a pink rolls royce
I did not get up early enough to get on track with the time change - staying up late last night was a real mistake, but I'm glad I got stuff done. And today went well despite starting already off the rails. I managed to write a bit after I made coffee, which felt great. And then I spent the day doing a variety of tasks - I took care of some online tasks, did three loads of laundry, washed and changed my sheets, and continued my attempt to reorganize my closets (which has now also spread to reorganizing the basement).
At some point, I took a walk downtown to pay all the myriad water bills that [censored] and I are responsible for. This felt risky since the railroad has been doing a lot of work and periodically blocking the crossings in town, and I would have been unhappy to be stuck on foot on the other side. But the weather was nice, and the walk ended up worth the risk.
Then I came home, put a chicken in the oven to roast, and carried on with my wardrobe shenanigans until dinner. The chicken turned out quite well, although I should have made gravy to go with it. [Censored] and I ate it while watching last night's SNL with Lady Gaga - they really leaned into the quirkiness of their guest, and the sketches were all a little bonkers, which I enjoyed.
And now, I need to force myself to go to bed (even though 11:13 on a normal night feels early, and it's very early if it feels like 10:13) - I have a v. unusual 8am meeting tomorrow, which means I have to be fully dressed and functional before I usually have to even get up for work. Wish me luck with that (and yes, I know I get v. little sympathy for the fact that I don't have to get up before 8am on normal days). Goodnight!
Saturday, March 08, 2025
she's so good with her geppetto, you don't really mind the pain
Friday, March 07, 2025
how'd you find a party when you're in your room
I did not blog yesterday because v. little happened - I worked all day and had meetings until 6:45pm, and then I made quesadillas for me and [censored]. The quesadillas were decent because they were filled with chicken taco meat that I'd made in the slow cooker over the course of the afternoon, but that was about as much effort as I could muster to feed myself before it was time to retire for the night.
Today was a little more of the same - I woke up and worked all day (with a brief break to talk to Natasha, who was a delight) but then I slacked off at 4pm because [censored] and I decided to make a mad dash to Des Moines to run some errands. I wanted to get some plastic tubs for storing clothes, and also a cheap mirror so that I can see my outfits in the comfort of the second story of my house rather than having to go up and down the stairs to check myself in the only current mirror, which is in [censored]'s bathroom. The lack of a mirror in my bedroom has been a challenge since I moved in, and it's especially challenging when I'm getting ready for trips and need to pack outfits that look better than my usual sweatshirt and leggings.
[Censored] also had a couple of tings to pick up based on some weekend sales, and so we swung through Theisen's, then went to Menards, Harbor Freight, and Target. I would have potentially bought fruit trees at Menards, but we weren't really equipped for that. But I did get everything on my list, as did [censored], and we made it through those stores in record time. Then we treated ourselves to Johnny's instead of McDonald's, which was certainly more expensive but much less gluten-filled (for me; [censored] ate all the gluten on my behalf). My prime rib was perfect and my baked potato and glass of wine were great, although neither of us were particularly fond of the caesar salad. But we lived to tell about it (which was somewhat in doubt, since [censored] is allergic to spinach and some of the leaves looked questionable), and we made it home without issue.
And now that I've accomplished more than I do some weekends, it's time for bed - goodnight!
Wednesday, March 05, 2025
chicken in the bread pan picking out dough
Tuesday, March 04, 2025
so here's the thing
Monday, March 03, 2025
miles from budapest
I did not blog yesterday because I was too tired, which means I have to blog today, which is unfortunate because I'm also too tired. Yesterday was fine, though - I had a v. smooth, uneventful return to ye olde Iowa. I wasn't even the slightest bit hungover from seeing Katie (probably because we were very sedate and didn't end the evening with multiple espresso martinis like we did the last time we saw each other), and the hotel had a reasonably nice continental breakfast. And my uber driver was, v. oddly and coincidentally, the same uber driver who picked me up at the Denver airport on Thursday.
I got to the airport early enough to grab lunch before boarding my flight. I worked during most of my airport time + most of my plane time, and then I drove home just in time to make it before dark. When I got here, [censored] and I decided to grab Mexican food, and we also got a couple of groceries so that I can survive the week. Then I actually unpacked everything (fastest I've ever put away my luggage in my entire life, I think), which took it out of me.
Today was all slogging - I had a million things to do since I didn't do much actually work Thursday and Friday. So I slogged from 9:30ish to 6:30ish, with a couple of breaks in between. At some point I said goodbye to [censored], and I also took a 10min nap before my 5:30 meeting that saved me. When I was done with meetings, I took a break, made a frozen pizza, journaled a bit, and caught up on Reddit. Then, sadly, I still needed to do more work - which I did off and on for the past three hours while also watching some Seth Meyers in the background.
And now, I need to go to bed - goodnight!
Saturday, March 01, 2025
olalla
they just keep on looking to the east
Thursday, February 27, 2025
three or four degrees
Wednesday, February 26, 2025
you push mе in circles to the edgе of the earth
Today was a mad scramble - I'm leaving tomorrow for a v. abbreviated work trip to Denver, and I had to do a million things today to get ready. When I woke up, I wrote for a tiny bit of time, and then I finalized a program that I had to give tonight at my PEO meeting. Then I did some work, showered, had a meeting, and sped into town to get allergy shots so I wouldn't get too far behind on them.
Things were so hectic thereafter that I had to talk to Adit on the phone while I drove home, where I dove straight into four hours of meetings. I was fortunately able to grab some cottage cheese as I ran upstairs, and one meeting ended early enough for me to make a sandwich, but it was all touch and go. However, I survived. And then as soon as I was done working, I started packing - luckily I'd thought about outfits last night, and I made a list that was sufficiently strict so that I could avoid checking a bag. This should be easy peasy for a three-night trip, but I do like to have many outfit options, so I feel quite proud of myself for how minimally I packed.
I didn't quite finish packing before I had to eat some dinner and speed into town for my meeting. It was all good, and my program was fine (it was about writing, which I theoretically know something about even though I have little to show for it recently), and then we sat around and ate snacks. Then I came home, finished packing, removed the last bits of gel polish from my nails, trimmed my bangs, watered the plants, and generally got fully ready to go.
And now, I need to go to bed - all that I have to do in the morning is shower, make coffee, and grab my makeup and glasses. But I have to do all of that early enough to get out the door by 6am, which is a v. unwelcome time for me to leave the house. So it's definitely time for bed - goodnight!
Tuesday, February 25, 2025
breezeblocks
Monday, February 24, 2025
i'm going to wichita, far from this opera forevermore
Sunday, February 23, 2025
you in the sea, on a decline, breaking the waves
I had an unusual weekend, but it ended well. Yesterday I woke up at the absurd hour of 5:45am so that I could brew some coffee and make myself look presentable before joining [censored] on an early drive to Kansas City. We went there to attend visitation for the wife of Gram's cousin Jimmy (who I'm guessing most people call Jim, but eighty-four-year habits die hard). We saw Jimmy somewhat regularly as kids because we used to have family reunions on that side of the family, but I hadn't seen him since Gram's funeral in 2019.
So, we decided that we would drive down to pay our respects. We only went to the visitation, which was probably odd since we'd driven so far - but we didn't want to stay all day, which we suspected would happen if we stayed for the funeral, since it would transition into lunch. We talked to Jimmy for about as long as one can talk to someone in a receiving line, and he said how much fun he always had roller skating with Gram, which I'm sure was true. We also talked to his brother Tom, and then to some of the other cousins (Terry and Sheila, and Geoff and Lynn), and then we snuck out the back as the funeral was starting.
I'm really glad we went, but it was a long morning - we were back home by 12:45pm, and I had high hopes of getting tings done, but instead I took a long nap and got v. little done. I did make chili, which felt like an accomplishment. But I went to bed feeling v. lethargic and unenthused...
...so I woke up this morning determined to have a better day. I mostly succeeded - I stayed off my phone until well after lunch, and I got some good journaling / writing done this morning. I also got groceries, did some stretching, walked downtown to pay my gas bill and inspect some mural stuff, and wrote a bit more. I ended the day by making cheeseburgers and french fries, which were not the best (the burgers were pretty good, but the fries I bought were somehow not great). Then I spent the rest of the evening doing a bit more work, and now I'm ready to call it a night. Goodnight!
Friday, February 21, 2025
can music save your mortal soul
I had a long-ish day - not that it was bad, it was just unusual. I took my parents to Des Moines so my dad could see his cardiologist, which meant three hours of driving, thirty-ish minutes in a waiting room, an appointment, some detour through the 'gift shop', and then a stop at McDonald's where I definitely gluten'd myself because I really wanted chicken nuggets as a reward (they were #worthit and usually don't make me feel bad anyway, which makes me question whether the breading is as fake as the meat).
So anyway, the appointment went fine, and while it was way too cold outside, at least the sun was out for the drive. When we got home, I vegged for a little bit, took a shower, and then ended up trapped into a two-hour discussion about finances and taxes with Adit and the finance person. This was supposed to take thirty minutes, but instead dragged on until 6:30, which was my limit for discussing taxes other than my own.
By that point I was hungry, so I reheated last night's pasta and supplemented it (since there wasn't enough for me and [censored]) with a package of gluten free gnocchi and a jar of pasta sauce as a second dish. I ordered the gnocchi awhile ago and hadn't tried it yet, but I was pleasantly surprised - it tasted pretty good, and since it boils in less than three minutes, it makes for a fast dinner. The jarred pasta sauce was also good, although it would be better if I added sausage (that's what she said). But for a ten minute meal it was pretty winning.
Then I sat around and procrastinated, and then I came upstairs and just did half an hour of work that I could no longer put off. And now I need to go to sleep immediately - goodnight!
Thursday, February 20, 2025
clearest blue
Wednesday, February 19, 2025
in a screaming ring of faces i seen her standing in the light
Tuesday, February 18, 2025
cold as ice
Monday, February 17, 2025
scared straight
Apologies for not blogging last night - yesterday was a whirlwind because I got up to bid Sarah farewell as she continued her journey west, and then I talked to [censored] for awhile before taking a nap.
Then I sped for Des Moines just to do a grocery run - I was low on meat, especially chicken, and I decided a Whole Foods trip was in order. It was pretty cold for a road trip, but not as cold as it was today, so it was worth it. When I got home, I took care of something at my dad's shop, and then [censored] and I watched the SNL 50th anniversary show. It was quite funny, all in all - there were a couple of skits that I didn't love, but for the most part they were bangers.
Today was much calmer - I had the day off, and it was snowing all day, which made me quite lazy. I did some journaling / writing this morning, and then I spent a bit of time this afternoon at my parents' house since I didn't see them over the weekend. Their driveway was nearly drifted shut, but I made it in and out without issues, which was fortunate. I didn't get as much done the rest of the day as I intended, but that's okay - I did make some soup and listen to an audiobook, and I did a bit more writing tonight, so I'll take it.
And now it's time for bed - goodnight!
Saturday, February 15, 2025
the man who stole the world
Friday, February 14, 2025
guess all the mystique only works in your prime
Thursday, February 13, 2025
i can't ignore the crazy visions of me in LA
Tuesday, February 11, 2025
it's snowing in baltimore, fifteen miles east
My day was almost entirely consumed by work - I've been grinding in an attempt to get caught up after vacation, with mixed results. But work went fine, so I have no complaints. I also did a v. minor amount of prepping for tomorrow's snow - I went to my dad's shop to drag his dumpster inside, and I got my car into my garage. I'll be curious to see how much snow we get tomorrow, and I'm hoping that the snowy conditions don't impact my mood as negatively as cloudy conditions do.
I took a long break around dinnertime to talk to Katie - we hadn't caught up in awhile, so we chatted for about an hour. As we talked, I prepped dinner, which required a lot of knife work, which felt appropriate for the subjects of conversation. I made a sheet pan full of roasted butternut squash, brussels sprouts, red onions, and chicken, along with a dijon/maple syrup/balsamic/olive oil marinade, and it turned out great. I've made it before, but it's been a minute, and this is a good meal to prep ahead and then freeze for Future Sara.
So after we got off the phone, I ate a serving of the chicken/veggies and relaxed for a bit. At some point [censored] showed up - [censored] never comes back on Tuesdays, but given tomorrow's conditions, it was probably wise. We talked for awhile, and then I came upstairs and worked off and on until now. And now I need to sleep - goodnight!
Monday, February 10, 2025
are you my friend? are we locked in?
I had a very focused day of work activities, spurred partially by having more to do than I could get done, and also by the fact that Mondays tend to be meeting heavy. But all in all I was pleased with what I did manage to get done, and I have high hopes for tomorrow (although with fewer meetings I often tend to sabotage myself, so hopefully I can avoid that fate).
I had to end slightly early because I had an unusual 6pm Monday meeting. My secret society usually meets on Wednesdays, but tonight we had a joint social/meeting with the Corydon chapter. Of course, I know most of them as well - they're heavy on teachers and former teachers, so there were many familiar faces. It was fun to hang out with them; less fun to move into a standard business meeting, but I survived.
Then I grabbed a couple of tings at the grocery store, came home, took care of a few personal tasks, should have worked, and instead caught up on Reddit. And now I need to sleep - goodnight!
Sunday, February 09, 2025
a minor
Saturday, February 08, 2025
denial is a river
Friday, February 07, 2025
the weather ain't been bad if you're into masochistic bullshit
I have nothing noteworthy to share - I woke up this morning after not nearly enough sleep, and then I slogged all day. Luckily my meetings were all good, and I remembered that I could have tuna salad on toast for lunch, so things definitely could have been worse.
When I was finally done with meetings, I ran to the grocery store to get a few tings, and then I made a shrimp and andouille pasta that I haven't made in quite some time. It turned out well, and [censored] and I ate it while watching two episodes of Stargate (the 90s called to get their TV back, but they got a busy tone). And now I need to sleep - goodnight!
Thursday, February 06, 2025
house so empty, need a centerpiece
Wednesday, February 05, 2025
under streetlights in the city of palms
Tuesday, February 04, 2025
lost in modern music
Monday, February 03, 2025
embrace the deep and leave everything
Today wasn't quite as good as yesterday, mostly because I didn't get quite enough sleep, woke up a little too early, and then spent too much time reading the news. I did get myself out of bed and go for a walk around eight - I found an excellent coffee shop by following signs into a parking lot that promised coffee. This is not how I normally find coffeeshops, but it was much better than Starbucks, so I'm happy I did. And I walked around Carlsbad for awhile after that, which was a good way to wake up.
Then I came back, did a bit of writing and other work while sitting in bed, and eventually showered and ate lunch while talking to Anne. Barbara lured me to write outside with the promise of a fire pit - we have been sitting in the gazebo, but it got foggy / windy today and the gazebo wasn't quite as nice. The fire pit was great, though - it was more of a fire stand since it was chest-high (waist-high if you're taller than me), but it put out the right amount of heat to keep us both comfy while we wrote / chatted most of the afternoon. I also took a break to call my parents, which felt very pleasantly like Sundays of old.
Eventually we came inside, and I placed the dinner order while we all talked about business stuff. I was my usual social self during and after dinner, but it was hard to focus. There's a lot of cognitive dissonance going on when the specifics of this retreat -- a house we've stayed at several times, a book I want to write, and easy and plentiful food delivery -- are so standard and mundane. Meanwhile, outside political events are anything but mundane.
One example of a thousand: Musk and his staffers -- several of whom are interns at Musk's companies who dropped out of college and are now in charge of the government despite not being elected or appointed, or potentially even paid by the government -- are accessing and downloading sensitive/classified information and shutting off Treasury payments to groups like Lutheran Family Services. All of this is a clear violation of the Constitution's laws around appropriations and spending, and apparently being done without any of the security clearances or information handling laws that administrations have historically followed.
[If you don't believe me about them targeting Lutheran Family Services, Musk tweeted it himself. He also tweeted that he spent the weekend "feeding USAID through the wood chipper" - even though much of that money stays in the US, and it's a key way we compete with China and Russia's efforts to buy allies around the world.]
While I knew the general shape of this was coming given what was said on the campaign trail, it's still shocking to watch it happen. It's also worrisome to know that many people I love, who are affected in some way by government spending (via funding for their jobs, medicare, the farm bill, social security + social security disability, or even just wanting roads/safe air travel/a functioning post office/a functioning society in general) are in for a lot of pain.
But I need to write a book tomorrow, and this isn't helping me to go to sleep. Goodnight!
Sunday, February 02, 2025
if you close your eyes
I had quite a nice day in Carlsbad. I woke up at 5am to the dulcet tones of pigeons on the roof, but I put in the earplugs that I got via amazon same-day delivery, and that solved the problem so that I could sleep until after seven. I did a bit too much reddit scrolling, but then I did some journaling, showered, and went to Starbucks to get a coffee (and do a little browsing in the clothing store next door, which was surprisingly open by nine).
When I got back to the house, I did some good morning writing while watching the ocean and admiring the birds that are still alive to fly in formation over the waves. Then I took a slightly too long break for lunch - but I ordered a gluten free sandwich that was absolutely perfect, so it was #worthit. I spent the afternoon in the gazebo with Barbara, getting a nice amount of sun while doing some more writing-adjacent work.
The evening was also fun - we picked up Mexican food from the place down the street, and happily they do margaritas to go, so that was a nice bonus. I spent the last hour of social time with Anne, Tina, and Christie, and it got as absurd as it usually does with that group, which means it's good that we adjourned at 10:15 because I don't think I could handle another hour without either another drink or some ibuprofen (I'm equal opportunity about my painkillers).
And now I need to sleep - goodnight!
Saturday, February 01, 2025
electric avenue
Friday, January 31, 2025
show me why you deserve to have it all
I have successfully ended work for the week and begun my writing retreat. Today was a slog to get to this point - I had a bunch of work to do, and I also had to pack, and there was v. little time in which to do those things because I also had a million meetings. But I got up early, grabbed some coffee, and got into the slog, and I would say I got done about as much as I needed to get done before signing off. I also took a break in the middle to eat some corned beef hash from the cafe downstairs, which was v. tasty. And I took my last two meetings from my balcony, which felt like a #treatyoself moment when compared to taking meetings from my desk in the wintery grey of ye olde Iowa.
sssanyway, check-in at the retreat was at 4pm, and check-out at my hotel was also 4pm, which was fortuitous. Even more fortuitous, they were only ten minutes apart. So I checked out at 3:45, grabbed an uber, and got to the house just in time to meet all my friends. There are 14 of us here, and there will be 15 for a couple of nights later in the week, so it's quite a full house. We drew numbers for rooms, and I drew fairly poorly (#9), which seems like happens every year - but thanks to many people having room preferences that I find bizarre, I managed to get my third choice despite being ninth in the choosing order. So I think everything's coming up Sara, but we'll see what I get done this week.
So we all hung out all evening, and we ordered and ate some tasty pizza, and I placed a bevmo order that came almost immediately. Then we did our usual exercise of intro'ing ourselves (we have a couple of new people this year) and sharing our goals for the year, which was fun. And then I stayed up until around 10 before deciding that I should go to bed. Of course, I didn't go to bed immediately - I decided to unpack, which always makes me feel good. But now it's time to sleep - goodnight!
Wednesday, January 29, 2025
rikki don't lose that number
No blog tonight - I had a v good day of working (much of it in the sun), and I also got a massage. But I'm quite tired, so I'm going to got to bed so that I can get up and keep cranking early tomorrow - goodnight!
Tuesday, January 28, 2025
i'm in california dreaming about who we used to be
I had a highly productive day until the last couple of hours - I woke up reasonably early, grabbed coffee downstairs, and then got straight into work. I continued slogging over a late breakfast, then had more meetings, then kept slogging through the afternoon.
Eventually, I took a bit of a break to grab a gluten free pocket pie (tasty, but they gave me apple and I wanted cherry), and then I walked along the ocean for a bit. And then I grabbed dinner at the hotel restaurant - which happens to have a michelin star and a chef who was just nominated for a James Beard award, so it's better than most hotel restaurants. I sat at the bar, which has a pretty limited menu, but my quesadilla with wagyu beef was perfect, and my margarita was also a delight. And I did some good journaling about what I want to accomplish with my writing this week, so I'll take it.
And now, I need to sleep and repeat these feats tomorrow - goodnight!
right place wrong time
Monday, January 27, 2025
keen grits his teeth and enters sand yego
Saturday, January 25, 2025
it doesn't have to rhyme so don't you feed me a line
this is calcutta, bohemia is dead
Today was a whirlwind of various tings. I woke up and talked to Aunt B while making coffee, and then I scurried around and got ready so that I could go into town for allergy shots. Then I came home and slogged through three hours of meetings*, ate some soup (some might consider it sludge), and then took Aunt Becky and Aunt Kathy to the local thrift store. I didn't find any treasures to document here, but I did drop off four bags of clothes that had been sitting in my garage for two months, so I considered this a big win. And the aunts both found tupperware of varying shapes, so everyone was happy.
Then I grabbed a couple of things at the grocery store, dropped them back at my praents' house, and sped home so that I could work some more. When I finally wrapped up, I did a few things around the house and then prepped the last tings for dinner - I made some extra sauce for the ham balls (which I'd made on new year's day and frozen for tonight) and also prepped a batch of scalloped potatoes (potatoes au gratin if you're fancy).
Then I grabbed the potatoes, ham balls, extra sauce, and several bottles of wine and went out to Mom and Dad's. We had to have our belated Christmas celebration tonight because Drewbaby and Sammie could only come down tonight, but that ended up working pretty well. I put the potatoes in the oven and then we all hung out and chatted about various things while eating the relish tray that Kathy made in the shape of a Christmas tree. Then we ate dinner, continued chatting, and eventually some of us played a card game (Skyjo, which is basically a card game called Golf, which I have also never played). It was a fun way to pass the time, but then [censored] pointed out that the only people still awake and playing cards were the people who were staying at my house, so we vacated my parents' house and came back here.
Now, after several hours of chatter (which involved several more mentions of human feces than I'm used to discussing in this family, even though my San Francisco family often discusses feces thanks to Adit), I need to sleep - I volunteered to take an air mattress in my office since Aunt B/Uncle B are in the guest room, Aunt Kathy is in the basement, and Andrew/Sammie would be better off in my bed since they have to get up super early tomorrow. We'll see how that goes for me, but I think I'm tired enough that I'll get at least some sleep. Goodnight!
* I should clarify that one of the meetings wasn't a slog because it was a catch-up with my friend Natasha, whom I haven't talked to in ages and who is an absolute delight. And luckily my other meetings weren't bad either, but I would have rather had the whole day off...
Thursday, January 23, 2025
i'm on that supersonic boom, y'all hear that spaceship? zoom
I have v. little to report - I slogged relentlessly today in anticipation of knocking off work early tomorrow. That meant a ton of work this morning and a whole bunch of meetings this afternoon. But since I like the people I work with, this was not actually that big of a deal. And when I was done, I talked to Katie while cleaning my kitchen, and then ran to the grocery store for some last minute necessities.
When I got home, I threw together a double batch of what [censored] and I affectionately call 'Elmer's Chili' (so named because it is more like glue than soup, but I love it). It was ready just after Aunt Becky and Uncle Brian arrived from Colorado - and happily they were ready to partake in it. So we ate chili (at the table that I procured from Uncle B, so that's a fun trip down memory lane for them), and Brian partook of my underused liquor cabinet while I drank some pinot noir. All in all it was a v. fun couple of hours, and a good way to kick off 'Christmas weekend' (if you want to call it that).
And now I need to go to bed so I can do a bunch of work tomorrow before slacking off for family time - goodnight!
Wednesday, January 22, 2025
wristwatch, drip drop, labels want the tiktoks
Monday, January 20, 2025
little did you know your home's really only a town you're just a guest in
I am feeling tired at 9:48pm, and I'm going to valiantly attempt to go to bed right away so that I don't get a second wind and stay up until 2am. Today was fairly productive, though - I didn't get out of bed until after ten, but I got a lot done this afternoon. I'm getting close to being able to host guests next weekend, depending on whether and when those guests decide to spend the night.
I mostly focused on the downstairs this afternoon, and I tackled the worst chore first - I washed the pendant lights above my kitchen island, which get grimy because they're also about the stove. Every time I wash them I live in fear of breaking them, which is why I don't wash them often enough - but they'll look great until I made a stirfry again. I also took down my Christmas decorations. I had planned to leave them up since we're doing Christmas with Aunt B next weekend, but I realized that if I left them up for that, they would be up until sometime in February due to my travel schedule. Hopefully we can still get in the holiday spirit without a tree in the corner of my living room.
Sometime in there, I also said goodbye to [censored], who had to journey north. I also dusted and vacuumed the living room and guest room, washed the guest room sheets, vacuumed the carpets in the basement, tidied up the dining room, and did various other tings. Eventually, I was out of steam, so I ate some leftover pizza, scrolled for awhile, and did some day job stuff that I was putting off. I'm still putting off some of it and will have to get up early tomorrow to finish it, which is another incentive to sleep soon. So on that note, goodnight!
ra-ra-rasputin, russia's greatest love machine
I failed to get up in a timely fashion this morning because I went to bed at two a.m. (which is not what I intended to do when I blogged, but my phone got the best of me). So I was in bed until 10:30, and then I made coffee and got around in a v. desultory fashion.
However, I was slightly more productive than yesterday - I showered, then checked on the house next door (where there is no water leaking despite me completely ignoring it for the last month - but I do have temperature sensors and cameras, so I know it's not inhabited by squatters or at risk of freezing). Then I ran into town to grab a couple of tings for dinner. I threw a chuck roast into the slow cooker along with some beef stock, lime juice, vinegar, onion, and a bunch of spices, and the smell of it cooking for five hours was nearly enough to drive me mad with hunger.
While it was cooking, I did some other random tasks and cleaned my room. This included setting up the new shop vac that I'd ordered several months ago so that I could try vacuuming my bedroom with it. I hadn't shared this fact since I was quite sad about it, but I lost one of my favorite earrings on thanksgiving (a diamond stud my parents gave me). I was sure it had to be in my room, but after repeated searching of the carpet, my clothes, etc., it was nowhere to be found. [censored] suggested using the new shop vac before it had any other debris in it, and I finally got around to testing it. The pile in my carpet is such that an earring could easily get hidden within it, but I wasn't looking forward to spending many minutes/hours carefully sweeping every inch of the room. Happily, though, I heard something hit the inside of the shop vac within the first minute of my attempt - and my earring was there, looking none the worse for wear. So that was a real win, even if I accomplished nothing else.
This meant I could finally actually vacuum my room, which I've been avoiding due to the missing earring. I did not do that today, but I did dust and clean my bathroom and generally clean up. I threw together some mexican rice in the rice cooker and let dinner finish making itself. I also inspected my basement, where [censored] discovered a leak today - unrelated to any water pipes, and relatively fixable, but still quite annoying (and darkly funny that we were worried about the abandoned house next door instead of the basement).
Then I shredded the beef barbacoa, heated up some refried beans, and ate with [censored] while watching last night's SNL. The beef was amazing tonight, and I'm looking forward to the leftovers tomorrow. And after we were finished with SNL and cleanup, I came upstairs and read for the last few hours - I started THE GOLDFINCH, which came out several years ago, and which I only picked up because we're reading it for a book club at work. So far so good, but I'm curious to see where it's headed.
And now I need to sleep - goodnight!
Saturday, January 18, 2025
sometimes there's airplanes you can't jump out
I am back in Iowa after a slightly chaotic day yesterday. Nothing terrible happened, but I woke up slightly later than I should have, decided to prioritize a final cup of Philz over packing (#worthit, even though it ate 30min since I had to drive there and back), and then had a meeting that took 45min instead of 30. Because of all of this, I had to scramble to pack, shower, and return my rental car. I made it through security in time to grab some food, which I ate as I watched the first half of my plane board, but I was in my seat before final call, so I guess it was all fine.
My flight to Denver was uneventful, and I grabbed a snack (burrata, which is pretty fancy for a snack, but also gluten free) before boarding my Des Moines flight. It was starting to snow in Denver, and so we were delayed by about thirty minutes for deicing. But the flight was otherwise smooth, and I was in my house by 11:15pm. I chatted with [censored] longer than I should have, but then I retired and v. much enjoyed being back in my bed.
I was pretty lazy today despite my best intentions - but I think I needed a lazy day after a long trip. I made some coffee and sipped it while talking to [censored], and then I messed around online for way too long. I finally ate some lunch, took a shower, cleaned out the fridge and took out my trash, moved a couple of tings from the garage to the shed, and ran to the grocery store. It was chilly today but it's going to be absurd tomorrow, so I'm glad I got some stuff done.
Then I was going to work, but I got sucked into the Iowa State / West Virginia game, which was not a fun game to get sucked into because we lost. As soon as it was over, I ordered some pizza and [censored] and I picked it up to take out to the parents' house. We hung out there for awhile, which was nice, and I was happy for them that [censored] fixed all sorts of stuff for them while I was flitting about in California.
And now, I need to sleep and aim for more productivity tomorrow - goodnight!
Friday, January 17, 2025
knocking on heaven's door
Wednesday, January 15, 2025
we'll be counting stars
wonderin' if i could sneak out the back
Today was entirely slogging - I got up early enough to sneak into downtown Burlingame and pick up a Philz coffee before doing some work and then going into the office, but I cut it all close. Then I slogged through meetings all day, came back to the hotel (with a coworker who is also staying here), and accidentally took a nap.
But I did a bit of journaling this evening, which is always great. And I ate some takeout thai food, had a glass of wine, and did a bunch of work that I needed to get done, so I'll take it. And now I need to go to sleep so I can rinse and repeat tomorrow - goodnight!
Monday, January 13, 2025
the drugs, the women, the wine, the weed
Sunday, January 12, 2025
marry me juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I had a lovely day, although I'm crashing hard now. I slept a little fitfully last night, which is not a surprise since my advanced age makes it hard to have more than one or two drinks in a night. But I got up early enough to walk to the nearest Philz for coffee, do a bit of writing, and then shower and pack up all my stuff. Then I drove down to Woodside to meet Shedletsky and Bride of Shedletsky for brunch at the Village Pub.
Village Pub sounds like it might be lowkey, but it's definitely not a Village Inn. It's actually part of the same restaurant group that owned my beloved Des Amis before it closed, but Village Pub has been a mainstay forever (and has had a michelin star for twelve consecutive years). They have a three-course brunch offering, which was truly excellent - and we opted for the additional fourth course, which was a perfect risotto covered in shaved truffles. I did oysters for my appetizer, then the risotto, then a perfect french omelette, and then a chocolate souffle, along with my share of a bottle of sauvignon blanc. When I type all those dishes together, they don't match at all - they were spaced out with plenty of time in between each, so it was almost like four mini-meals (or real meals, since the risotto and the omelette both could have been a single meal in their own right).
So we have a very leisurely almost-three-hours hanging out and catching up, and it was a delight to see them. When it was finally time to part ways, I went to Stanford Shopping Center to check in on my old haunts. The mall continues to get more upscale, but it was also absolutely buzzing compared to most malls these days. I also got some interesting intel from the guy who rang up my purchase at Anthro, and I enjoyed wandering around in the sunshine, so it was a worthwhile way to spend an hour.
Then I drove north, checked into my new hotel, unpacked, and zoned out for quite awhile. I finally rallied to grab a burger from the bar (which was fine but extremely subpar compared to my brunch experience) and do a bit of work. And now I'm going to go to bed and hope that I can get a million things done tomorrow morning. Goodnight!