Saturday, April 30, 2022
you see them long trains runnin' and you watch them disappear
Friday, April 29, 2022
how did it end up like this
Thursday, April 28, 2022
waiting for things to get better
Today was another long slog, but the light is at the end of the tunnel - by this time tomorrow, I should be fully wrapped up and ready to shut down my corporate laptop for eight weeks. This is assuming, of course, that I can get through the remaining things on my to-do list, but I have some faith that I'll get through it all.
So, since I did nothing but work today (and accept some cupcakes from my mom at lunch, and go out to my parents' for dinner, and then greet [censored] when he showed up at my house tonight), I have v. little to report. Bed seems like a more valid path than trying to come up with something to write tonight, so it's time to go to sleep - goodnight!
Wednesday, April 27, 2022
feels a lot like settling
The slog to the finish line is real - I had meetings almost straight from 9:30 to 6:30, with a small break somewhere in there to make a sandwich. Luckily, other meetings ended at appropriate times to check on my dad, who v. graciously showed up to mow my yard (which will keep me from getting run out of town by any neighbors who were accustomed to Marvin's previous diligence at yardwork). Unluckily, I had to cancel on going to a meeting of the club that I'm in with my mom (I am obviously not a v. diligent member, since I don't actually live here and so haven't gone in years). But with only two work days left, I felt the need to eat supper and then keep slogging tonight.
And I could probably slog even more - but I'm going to go to bed, since sleep is probably more necessary. Goodnight!
Tuesday, April 26, 2022
to hell with timing, is it easier to bite your tongue
No blog tonight - I have three days left at work before I go on leave, and possibly three weeks of work to do before that happens. Today was good, though - I got a scrap of writing done before I started work, and my dad showed up at some point with some chicken that had almost literally fallen off the back of a truck (I only kept eight pounds of the eighty pounds he showed up with, so others in town were the beneficiaries of his good nature and also his free chicken). And, I went to my parents' house for supper, where I made salmon and mashed potatoes to go with the first asparagus of the year, and it was all pretty tasty.
However, I need to slog pretty excessively tomorrow, so it's time for bed - goodnight!
Monday, April 25, 2022
stare at the chemtrails
I should have gone to bed an hour ago, but I had a bunch of work that I wanted to get done tonight, and it unfortunately didn't seem to be doing itself. Today was fine, though - I got up and wrote just a tiny bit before work, which was exactly what I needed. Then I slogged all day, talked to Alyssa, and then went out to my parents' house for supper. My mom made a pork roast, which was v. tasty, and I spent some time hanging out and chatting, so that was all nice. It's also nice that it's staying light later, since I can stay for supper and chat after and still get home before dark.
And now, I am going to stop staring at this screen and unwind / go to bed - goodnight!
Sunday, April 24, 2022
day off in kyoto
Friday, April 22, 2022
said i'm living all alone inside a dream
I'm fallin' so I'm taking my time on my ride
Wednesday, April 20, 2022
good girls justify but I don't
Tuesday, April 19, 2022
something just like this
I very nearly didn't go into the office today, but eventually my strong need to do my duty + my strong desire for free eggs and hashbrowns overrode my nearly-equally-strong desire to stay in my sweats and work on my couch. So, I made it into the office with just enough time to grab the aforementioned eggs and hashbrowns (and some bacon) before my first meeting. I then slogged all day before ending around five. And then I emptied my trunk of three packages (to be returned via the mailroom), two bags of shredding (shredding has fallen by the wayside in the panny), and a bag of old electronics equipment belonging to my employer that had ended up in a box of dead plants that was delivered to me from my 'desk'. Given how many keyboards / mice there were, I don't think it was just my desk, but whatever.
Then I drove back to Denver and took myself out for dinner at Blue Pan - I was deeply in the mood for pizza, and it was eighty degrees today, so I was also in the mood for a glass of sauvignon blanc. I managed to get both of my desires fulfilled since there were seats open at the bar, so that was nice. Then I came home and procrastinated for an hour, but eventually I forced myself to take care of some tings.
I'm driving to Iowa this weekend and I'd like to leave after work on Friday, but that means my car needs to be loaded on Thursday, and that feels like an onerous task since I have v. late work tings going on tomorrow and Thursday. But I packed my clothes and some books and some other stuff tonight, so if I had to I could get out of here pretty quickly. It would be better if I could load my car full of stuff that needs to go to Iowa, but I think I would rather get on the road than try to maximize cargo space.
Then, I had to do a bit of day job work, and now I need to go to sleep so I can do this again tomorrow (with less alone time in the evening) - goodnight!
Monday, April 18, 2022
like the city can't hold us
Sunday, April 17, 2022
we're running with the shadows of the night
I had a much better day today, probably because there was no time for the Sunday Scaries to sneak in. I slept until nine, then messed around my house, trimmed my bangs, showered, etc. And then I drove south to hang out with Aunt Becky for a few hours. In the beforetimes, Easter was a holiday we typically celebrated at Uncle Mark and Aunt Kathy's, but since neither Aunt B nor I were in Iowa this weekend, we had lunch instead. We hung out in the kitchen for a few hours and caught up on many things, and Uncle B grilled the hamburgers that Aunt B had prepped, and it was all quite tasty.
Eventually, I drove home, and I talked to [censored] most of the way. Then, I talked to my parents for almost an hour and a half - I was actually supposed to be in Iowa this weekend, but life (aka work) got in the way, and I'm not going until next weekend. And then, I quickly got ready and met Katie at the Alamo Drafthouse - we finally saw 'The Lost City', which is basically required watching in Romancelandia. I thought it was excellent - it upheld/played with romance tropes really well, and Channing Tatum and Sandra Bullock are a delight. Also, Daniel Radcliffe excels at acting crazy. And since this was my first movie-going experience in over two years, doing it at Alamo (where I can get a gluten free pizza and a glass of wine delivered to my seat during the move) was an especially nice way to do it.
Sadly, the fun times had to end after the movie was over, so Katie and I parted ways. And now I need to go to sleep so that I can get some work done tomorrow - goodnight!
Saturday, April 16, 2022
glaciers
I was incredibly lazy today - so lazy that I never really got dressed (although I did put on sweatpants and a different shirt than what I slept in, so maybe that counts). But I did do two loads of laundry, and I paid my taxes, and I spent quite a bit of time purging my pantry and fridge of the many tings that have expired over the past year when I was in Iowa a lot and not cooking much here. So, those efforts were all worthwhile endeavors, even if some of my day was too sloth-filled for what I had planned.
And now I should probably force myself to go to bed - part of the problem today was that I managed to get less than six hours of sleep last night despite having no reason for such an abbreviated schedule, and I don't want to be quite so tired tomorrow. Goodnight!
killing your idols is a chore
Thursday, April 14, 2022
echoes in the dark
Today was marginally less exhausting than yesterday - it helped that when I stumbled downstairs to make coffee, I checked my phone and found that my 9am meeting was canceled, which saved my life. That gave me time to get ready in a more leisurely fashion and still get to the office in time to eat breakfast before my first meeting of the day.
Then I slogged all day, but it was not terrible - I didn't have many meetings, so I actually answered a lot of email that had piled up. And I snuck out around three to drive home before my four o'clock meeting so that I wouldn't be caught in rush hour traffic. I did that meeting, then did a bit more work, and then I picked up Katie for a girls' night out. We haven't seen each other in ages because Katie has had a non-covid plague, so we went to Ash'kara and caught up for a couple of hours. We had many tings to discuss, which we continued discussing after leaving the restaurant - and hopefully we'll see each other again this weekend, because we still aren't caught up.
But now, I really need to sleep so I can get through another slog tomorrow - goodnight!
Wednesday, April 13, 2022
speed of light
Tuesday, April 12, 2022
shut off the lights
Monday, April 11, 2022
if I could melt your heart
Sunday, April 10, 2022
i ain't even trippin, i'm not slippin, i just come on back for more
I had a v. nice day, all in all. I got almost nine hours of sleep, which was v. restorative. Then, I made some coffee and wrote for an hour - the ideas that I'm coming up with feel pretty good right now, and I'm guessing they've been percolating beneath the surface even though it feels like I haven't been doing anything writing-related recently.
Eventually, I ate an early lunch and got dressed. Then, I caught up with Terry - we hadn't talked since her wedding, so we chatted for awhile and talked about life and career and all that stuff. I also talked to [censored] for one of our usual quick (aka thirty minute) convos. Then, I ran a couple of errands, including picking up paint chips for the next phase of decorating schemes at my Iowa house + getting a few groceries.
Then I came home, ate some popcorn, and talked to my parents for quite awhile. I was supposed to go home next weekend, but the day job is cramping my style, so I'm pushing it off for a week (but will then be in Iowa for two weeks, which I'm hoping I can use to paint my office and possibly my bedroom if I get super ambitious). So, we caught up for awhile, and while I was talking to my dad I put some sweet potatoes in the oven to roast. After we hung up, I roasted some salmon - it's pretty much the easiest thing I make, and it's delicious every time. I also made some special butter with maple syrup / chipotles / orange zest (easy - just mix it all in the stand mixer for a couple of minutes, along with salt and pepper) - it really tastes great with sweet potatoes. So, supper was easy and also delicious, and my kitchen was cleaned up in a snap.
Eventually, I did a bit of day job work because I had to, and then spent the rest of the evening organizing myself. And now I should go to bed so I can get up at an early hour and still feel reasonably rested - wish me luck with that. Goodnight!
Saturday, April 09, 2022
and you think that you never really tried...open your heart, open your mind
if you live like that, you live with ghosts
I worked from home today, which saved my life - it has become deeply important to me that I can do a bit of work and drink a lot of coffee and stay in my pajamas until 30min before my first meeting, and this is obviously not possible when my commute is 45min and a shower/some makeup/actual pants are required on office days. Work was fine, all in all, but I was not particularly productive - by afternoon, the effects of the week were hitting me, and I mostly wanted to rest my eyes. So I got a bit more done, but I also talked to Katie (we have not caught up in ages as she's been super sick) and also to James (her husband, whom I also have not caught up with in ages).
Eventually, when it was marginally respectable to end the day, I ran a few errands, picked up some groceries, and got food to make tonight. I was going to make risotto and cook some scallops to go along with it, but the scallops at the fish market were $66/lb, which was exorbitant enough to make me think twice. So instead, I went across to my favorite little cheese shop and got some chorizo sausages so that I could try a Barefoot Contessa recipe instead. The recipe was for 'baked raclette', and it involved boiling and slicing fingerling potatoes, sauteeing the chorizo sausages, mixing the potatoes/sausages with some salt/pepper/thyme/white wine, and splitting the stuff across four individual baking dishes. Then, you cover the potato/sausage mix with slices of raclette cheese and bake for ten minutes so the cheese gets all melty and bubbly. All in all, it was excellent - it obviously wasn't what I had planned to have, but for a pivot it was v. welcome.
Then I spent the evening mostly procrastinating / half napping, and I should have gone to bed hours ago but it's suddenly after midnight. Goodnight!
Thursday, April 07, 2022
is someone getting the best of you
I'm insanely tired from going into the office three days this week - how did I do it before? I had a meeting with my new boss at nine, so I had to get up early and get out the door, but I made it into the office in time to have breakfast (the one good thing about going to the office). Then I had several high pressure meetings / presentations (which went well), followed by several less pressured meetings. I snuck out around 2:30 and drove home during a break so that I wouldn't have to deal with traffic, and then I worked the rest of the day. And then I ordered takeout Mexican and did nothing the rest of the night, which is what I needed.
But now I really need to sleep - goodnight!
Wednesday, April 06, 2022
that's the thing, it lingers and claws you when you're down
I'm too tired to blog tonight - I didn't get enough sleep last night, thanks to revenge bedtime procrastination + needing to get up early for work. I took an 8am meeting from my house, then drove to Boulder, where I slogged all day. I had a nice lunch with some teammates, but then I stayed at the office until almost 6:30 so that I could finish some stuff and not have to work when I got home.
Eventually, I did make it home, and at least it was still daylight out when I arrived. I reheated some leftover pasta, poured a glass of wine, and attempted to veg out, but I am not good at vegging when I have tings going on. Still, I'm tired enough to know that further attempts to veg and/or procrastinate will not help, so I need to go to bed asap. Goodnight!
Tuesday, April 05, 2022
wake me up inside
Today was my first official day back in the office, and the commute was rather unwelcome - but it was nice to have a lot of random food and also run into random people. When I came home, I talked to [censored], then did some stuff around the house, ate leftover pasta, did more house stuff, and then worked for the last three hours. Getting a new boss always causes chaos, and this time is no different (although I think he's good, so at least it doesn't feel wasted).
But on that boring note, I need to wind down and go to bed - goodnight!
Monday, April 04, 2022
you gotta get with my friends
I am revenge bedtime procrastinating (aka staying up too late even though I'm tired because I don't want to go to bed and then have to get up tomorrow). Today was fine - I should have gone into the office, but I decided to go back tomorrow (technically I'm only supposed to go in three days a week). So that gave me some time to get some work done, but I had to order a sandwich for lunch rather than getting free lunch at work.
When I eventually called it quits for the day, I spent some quality time in the kitchen - I made spaghetti all' amatriciana, which is one of my favorite weeknight meals since it's just spaghetti, bacon, red onion, red pepper flakes, garlic, and oil. Simple, tasty, easy, and definitely worth making. Then I messed around the house and took care of tings. And then I realized that the Kansas / UNC game was way closer than when I had checked the score at halftime, so I watched the last couple of minutes of that, begrudgingly cheered for Kansas due to their Big12 status (but secretly was enamored with UNC's head coach), and then watched the postgame report. I didn't watch nearly as much basketball this year as I would have liked, but that's the way it goes.
And now I need to stop procrastinating and go to bed - goodnight!